The Doctor's Appointment

     Today is going to be torture, and I'll be lucky if I make it through everything I intend to.  I have a doctor's appointment scheduled for an hour from now and my anxiety is through the roof.  The thought of having to be in that particular location at that particular time, having to stay there for some indefinite amount of time, is really getting to me.  My gut isn't doing so well (Pepto Bismol usually helps with this aspect) and I'm shaking.  Brian is away at a medical appointment of his own, so I'm all alone,  It's awful.
     Once my appointment's through, Brian and I are expected at his grandma's birthday party.  His aunts and uncles from out of state are coming up for this.  It should be a good time, but my anxiety is already starting to wear on me.  Anxiety, for me, can be physically draining and the longer it goes on for, the greater a toll it takes on me.  I don't know if I'll have the energy once this is through.  Ugh, anxiety sure does suck!
     Update: well, I was right that it was going to be a long, tiring day, but I got through a lot of stuff.  The doctor's appointment was the worst of it,  I was feeling miserable, or, as I phrased it to Brian, worse than death on the trip down.  We pulled into the parking lot and I wanted to go home.  I didn't think I was going to make it through.  There was this granite block thing near the entryway to the health center and I sat there for a few, trying to pull myself together.
     Luckily, few people had appointments today, so the doctor was able to see me almost immediately.  During the time in which I was waiting, I read some of a Dave Barry book aloud to Brian to quell my anxiety.  That seemed to do the trick pretty well.  I was feeling a lot better by the time it was all over.
     After that, Brian drove me down to the Bangor Waterfront for some Pokemon hunting.  There weren't many monsters hanging around when we first got there, but then some people dropped some lures and monsters started popping up in the area.  My fave catch of the day was probably the Jynx which I thought ran away on me but which I later found among my Pokemon.  I also found a Poliwhirl, some Gastlys, a Magikarp, a Tauros, a Psyduck, and a couple of Goldeens, among others.  Not super rare monsters or anything, but I had a good time.
     Brian and I then headed over to his grandma's house for her birthday celebration.  He and I arrived just in time for lunch.  I wasn't sure if I was going to be up to eating after my rough start to the morning, but I did manage a little snacking.  I wanted to eat more of the chips and dip, but the dip was sour cream intensive and I didn't want to push it.
     We sat around talking with his family for a couple of hours before we decided to head up to Rite Aid to pick up my antibiotics.  So that was yet another trip, but I made it through.  Later in the afternoon, Brian and I drove around campus to collect more Pokeballs and get our daily defender bonus.  I hadn't been feeling so great when we set out, although not nearly as sick as I had felt that morning, but by the time I got through the gym battles I was doing all right.
     Then it was dinnertime.  Brian and I have been eating seasoned rice meals for dinner the past few nights, but we didn't have any left, so we'd need to run to Hannaford for some more.  I decided to challenge myself one last time and accompany Brian to Hannaford.  I was a little off at the outset, but I made it through.  So it was a long day, stressful and miserable at times, but I feel accomplished.